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Movies to watch while in Quarantine

Everybody who is maybe reading this is more than likely in quarantine like I am, and yes it is very tedious and boring I know but I’m here to give you a few things that you could do while in quarantine like Netflix recommendations and some of my personal favourite books.

1. okay so I know maybe some of us if not a lot of us will watch Netflix and I know that everyone has different tastes as to what they like to watch genre wise but I thought I would give you some of a mix of different genres .

Recommendation 1. if you like comedy’s like I do , I mean who doesn’t it cheers you up when you having a bad day and it also gives you a good laugh if you are with friends or by yourself. so my favourite comedy movies are bring it on , step brothers and also bridesmaid’s is a good one too , I also like funny tv series like Brooklyn nine nine , Friday night dinner , still game etc , some of you might not know what some of them are if you aren’t from the uk so sorry about that . For kids there are also good ones like minions, hotel Transylvania and shrek which are amazing and I still watch them.

Recommendation 2. if you are into crime like I am and investigations like I am these are some really good documentaries that I enjoy . So one is don’t f**k with cats its really good if you are into investigations and finding out the motives as to why someone did what they did and the evil behind it all , another interesting documentary is the trails of Gabriel Fernandez which is about a nine year old boy who was abused and tortured by his own mother and step dad and it is hard to watch so anyone who finds abuse and murder triggering please be cautious watching.

recommendation 3. if you are into films that where first books then developed into films then here are a few suggestions but keep in mind the books are still better in my opinion. So first one Great Gatsby is a good contender for me as it is a play on the 1925 novel written by American author F. Scott Fitzgerald and is about a group of characters in a small town and is mainly about how Nick Carraway, a world war one veteran who works as a stock market trader after settling in NYC he finds himself attracted to Jay Gatsby and his extravagant life style. another good few are The Fault In Our Stars and The Perks Of Being A Wall Flower .

recommendation 4. if you like older films like I do I have a few you may enjoy. first one breakfast at tiffany’s of course that has to be the staple of a good old film for me or grease , mean girls , 13 going on 30 , bring it on etc. These are just the main ones for me if you are into these I know these may seem kind of girly or what not but they are good for no matter what gender etc.

So these are just some of my recommendations and you may be into them and you may not but that’s your choice and I hope you do enjoy some of them and that they help You while you are stuck at home in quarantine protecting yourselves from COVID-19 and just a quick note please stay at home if you are able to I know this might not be helpful advice as not everyone has income and childcare coming into their household but if you can , please follow your governments advice/instruction and stay home as you could be helping save so many lives and you might not even be aware that you are doing so.

Until next time also comment below what you would like me to post about next.

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How to deal with prelim results

How to deal with prelim results

You may be reading this going into your practice exams or receiving the results back with a good or bad mood about your score, I have received mine back and I can’t say I was pleased about all of them, trust me, but I this is my second year of experiencing this and I have some tips forall of you going through the same thing .

First tip- Do NOT over think the result whether it’s good or bad , this is really bad thing to do as you can find yourself traveling into the deepest depths of your mind thinking why did I do this bad? why can’t I be smarter? Just don’t do that its the worst thing you can do at this crucial time in ypour high school experience as everybody goes through the same thing , it hasn’t just been you that has had a bad result so don’t stress.

Second tip- Do NOT get worked up over your results. it is not a dead end . you have time to improve so don’t think this is the end of the road, don’t start thinking ”oh no I will never get to go to the college/university that I want to go to, or get that job I want.” You will, you just need time to practice, study and get better at what you’re trying to do and then you will achieve what you want.

“Its not stress that kills us, it is our reaction to it.”
~ Hans Selye.

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XOXO anonymous journal

devils ,angels and demons.

Fear. fear can be terrifying. Fear can be suffocating. Fear can make you see something, someone or somewhere as what it’s not. it can warp your mind into a prison. It can changed your perspective of anything into the worst thing imaginative. it can stop you from pushing to your full potential. A glass ceiling in your own making. A genuine heart stopper that blocks out the rational and the conscious. Your thoughts changed within an instant. Everyone has a fear, something that chills your bones. something that speaks louder than the truth, something that makes you change your behaviours. A fear can be anything you make it. A fear can be anything that makes your breath stop.

However a fear can connect you to the right choice. They act as a barrier to choices that aren’t so healthy, choices that would get you into a dangerous situation. They are somewhat of a protection. An Angel disguised as a the Devil. They help you make a conscious decision. You can overcome a fear in comparison to an phobia.

A phobia is an anxiety in itself. Phobias are harder, they stop the mind. Instead of limiting the thoughts they pause them, control how fast they come to you. They pause the healthy mind and create demons. They create barriers of concrete. Harder to escape from in a cell made of fire, burning every single piece of your conscious. They eat at you whole, they pick you apart piece to piece. Every single part of your being trapped in a time warp. It’s harder to find a safe piece of land when your phobias is the lava covering the ground below you. Trying to escape the chains of the phobia holding you down is harder than one might think. You can’t just grab the key and flee the shackles, It is a lot harder than that. Can you ever really rid yourself of the dark demon that is a phobia?

A phobia is like being an Mandurian candidate. It is like a school day that carries on for life. Protecting yourself from your demon is like a day to day job. Holding back the anxiety that tries to seep through your skin like water. Its cool at first until it starts to burn you, your skin feels like fire , it wont stop. Melting every single thought and feeling until your numb. wishing it would all stop but it never does.

Anxiety is a fear and a phobia. its like an illness you wouldn’t like. It is scaring. It limits your capabilities and potential. You can never be yourself without your mind being its own person. Its the devil disguised as an angel. It presents itself as something that would help you. Feeding you thoughts, emotions and behaviours that ”benefit” you when they don’t. They hurt you. They stop you. They scar you. In reality anxiety hates you. It makes you hate yourself. You eventually understand why it hates you. Although one can never fully understand why.

From the outside one may see it as manageable. it can be if you try. However it takes time and determination. If you believe you can do so then you can. Anxiety is hard, I have struggled my full life. It has never left me and never will. The sad truth you will never really rid yourself of the demon of anxiety. But you can control it. You can lock it away , having it only lash out at your weakest points, lashing out when your guard is down. But you can do it if you try hard you can do it. I have lost so many opportunity’s, friends and relationships due to anxiety. I will never gain them back but if you in vison a garden of freedom, a field of safeness and an ocean of happiness then you will free yourself from the dark, thorn filled garden covered by a storm.

anxiety is the controlling factor of all these things like fears and phobias. Anxiety is only partially spread into these like a half made sandwich the rest is on the thing itself. anxiety is a self esteem crusher. Anxiety is the devil in disguise of an angel. Phobias are demons. Fear is an angel in disguise of the devil. which one is the worst though. they all do the same damage to you. they all hurt you in one way or another. they all have intentions unclear. motives that you don’t understand. it just takes time thats all.

but how much time?

school stress

hi everyone , I know I disappeared recently and went severely MIA but I’m back now and I’m going to be a lot more active on here. anyway back to the topic of this weeks topic school stress aka tests, mental health struggles and how to cope.

I have always struggled to maintain a healthy mental state while going through exams and prelims in school with the overwhelming stress and worrying. anxiously waiting to know the fate of future with these numbered results that decide if you qualify to pass. I have struggled with my mental health for a while now but over the last few years it has got worse and got better overall its a progression I’m slowly figuring out, a puzzle or riddle I still have to finish or solve. Depressive episodes during these times are extremely normal and its also normal to not know how to cope and I understand when schools don’t offer enough sympathy or support for you during times like these.

fear. the fear of not knowing what is going to happen in the future. fear if you don’t make it to where you want to in your later career or if you’ll be able to maintain a lifestyle for yourself without the help of others or depending on others claiming your own independence and wearing it like a crown. the way I see fear is if you have experienced it you cant fear it was you haven’t known how it feel or seems to be scared of it, so in other words don’t stress about failing if you haven’t failed yet don’t overthink it, search and high and low for the worst outcome search for a good one.

when studying I love to listen to some good music to help block out all my troubles and if you would like I can create a Spotify playlist for studying if you would be interested in that. I also like to make flash cards and mind maps or spider diagrams depends on which u call them I call them sky maps sometimes cause I always do them as clouds as they calm me down and it helps me concentrate on what I am trying to do or write per say. I also find it good to read some good books and detach yourself from the stress of school by spending a bit of time from the bore that is school to cheer yourself up and lift you sprits of the floor. I love myself to read and write I love to personally write my own tales as I have a wildly free based imagination that I sometimes have trouble taming but I think I’m going to start posting on here and maybe some other platform to get it Widley out there.

anyway back to what I was saying I am currently reading coralline for the 100th time but that’s more of a beginners book there are millions out there it just depends on your own preference of genre that you like to read. I also like Jekyll and Hyde or great Gatsby and books along that line. I’ve posted a post before this one about movie suggestions I recently got into harry potter which I didn’t like for so long but found comfort in it and started to enjoy it, I also love marvel movies as well age of Ultron is my personal favourite but I love all them so much so its hard to choose. I also love a good documentary like David Attenborough’s recent one is really good on Netflix if you would want to check that out. i enjoyed the new season of the crown and sex education etc if your also into anything like them.

I could go on for ages and ages like a parrot but the conclusion of this all is don’t over think and stress your results and don’t look into your own future too hard cause in the end everything will play out how its supposed too. please make sure you make time for you’re own mental health as I know how hard it is to have an overcrowded train of thoughts pushing you to the walls and treating you like you aren’t important but you are important and I cant stress that enough. this year has been all over the place and don’t forget you aren’t alone and people do care about you and love you.

I’m gonna go for today but I might post a short story next time if you are interested in that but if there is anything in particular you would like me to post about I would love to do so.

until next time x

Hello

Hey guys, anonymous2214 here ,

I chose to do this because I am a teenager myself , I suffer from depression and anxiety and struggle with day to day , I am currently studying Highers and I love to write so I would really love to share my tips and advice with you my lovely readers . if you have any tips or advice of your own drop me a message and you might catch yourself in one of my posts .

I deal with exams , mental health troubles and I also surprising read the news as I am very up to date with the world going on around us right now

yes I could have picked to do a typical magazine but you know technology these days , not very many people pick up a newspaper anymore , they seem to just check apple news .

I am a teenager myself as I have said, I go through a lot of things that make me struggle from day to day which might be relatable to any of you reading.

“Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom.”
― Soren Kierkegaard

I will update weekly and you can suggest things you would like me to write about each update even if its something that I haven’t ever written about before .

exams, mental health and news .